Monday, January 26, 2009

Give your LIFE

I think about the life I live
A figure made of clay
I think about the things I lost
The things I gave away

And when I’m in a certain mood
I search the halls and look
One night I found these magic words
In a magic book

Throw it away
Throw it away
Give your love, live your life
Each and every day
And keep your hands wide open
Let the sun shine through
‘Cause you can never lose a thing
If it belongs to you

There’s a hand to rock the cradle
There’s a hand to help us stand
With a gentle kind of motion
As it moves across this land

And to hands unclenched and open
Gifts of life and love it brings
So keep your hands wide open
If you’re needing anything

Throw it away
Throw it away
Give your love, live your life
Each and every day
And keep your hands wide open
Let the sun shine through
‘Cause you can never lose a thing
If it belongs to you

-Fiction Family

Friday, January 23, 2009

New beginnings once again.

Hello friends and family :)

I am back in Canada and have gotten all settled in my OWN dorm room and have started classes. Classes are amazing and I am learning so much already and anxious to soak it all in.

I was really excited to get back and be with my new friends and be "free" again with my car of course:) But when i got here i was hit with a struggle and a slight depression. My head was everywhere trying to make my world start spinning again, but i felt like it was out of my hands and i just had to wait for the engine to get fixed. Have you ever been faced with so many options? And you didnt know which one you wanted, but you knew you had to choose? But then realize you didnt want any of them? OK maybe that is a vague and broad comment, but that was how i was feeling. I felt as though i was praying for the impossible, praying that God would take this out of my hands and let someone else decide, that God would solve this without my help. i felt as though i was praying that only because i didnt want to deal with it, i wanted to to avoid it really. BUT God did exactly that he took it and worked in that person and His will, will be done :) does anyone know how free i feel right now? The engine is back up and running and Leah is free like a bird again, and thats how it should be.

My dreams have been confirmed and Gods vision for me is being protected and i am preparing my self for that vision.

I have been chosen as a Life Group leader, to mentor over three girls, but really we are all one. But yesterday was the first day i lead the group. I was so pumped to lead them into a time of devotion and surrendering to the God of all comfort. Before we met i prayed one of the most powerful and meaningful prayer i have ever cried out. Have you ever prayed a prayer that you instantly knew would be answered? its almost like a jolt of lightening going through you, so much peace comes and confidence to move. AMAZING! I prayed for our life group that we would come together as one and that the Holy Spirit would move in us. And so He did! we started off by talking about our week and how our lives were going and so on. Then i asked them what kind of fears they had and/or lies that have been fed to them, lies they have grown to believe or burden them, and as we discussed them we encouraged each other. Then i had them write them down, then i took them out to the field to the fire pit to burn them. Before i had each one of the lies burned i had them out loud say the lie and turn it in to truth. :) So instead of saying "i am not beautiful" they said out loud with confidence "I AM BEAUTIFUL" so one by one they declared truth! and we BURNED THE LIES! After we were done burning the lies together we prayed and together in the field we should at the top of our lungs "WE ARE DELIVERED!!!!"  and right there we spoke the truth and we were delivered. AMEN 
Psalms 34:11-14
Come my children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
Whoever of you loves life
and desires to see many good days,
keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking lies.
Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and PURSUE it. 


The last few weeks me and Katie have grown to be even closer friends. it is such a joy to have her in my life and to be a strength for her. I am so grateful she is able to be a strength for me as well. we pretty much have spent most our free time together and encouraging and laughing together...so much fun times :)