I'll Never Let You Go

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Tenth Avenue North)

New Love.

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So maybe someday we will figure all this out. Maybe someday we will be better off. Maybe some day we will know just how good it can get. But really there are no words right now...its just that same big sigh i give with a frog in the back of my throat. Knowing that i did it again, knowing i seeked a filling to my heart in the wrong place...the same place. 

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When will i learn?

i was expected to not give up and suffer.

When will you know?

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A love that had never been deeper.

Is lost.

But a new one begins. And He never fails me.

Hallelujah He Reigns, He Reigns in my heart.

Prayer:

Lord being still is what I need.

Being transparent is what i need to achieve.

Lord your brightness is being covered by dark clouds.

So Lord let it rain down on me. 

And when it clears, it will be a new day. 

And so that day belongs to you.

Then when my heart bumps it will be a loving beat :)

Lord lets go to our secret place, in the field of serenity, just you and me.

Remember how we would dance, in those lavender fields. 

Find me there again.

Then under that Oak tree we will rest.

And there, you will cure my heart.

To you be the glory.

Amen